Wednesday, December 9, 2009

No longer 17, and no longer blaming myself

I've been clipping along in my life. Lots of good things have been happening. For one thing, I've had a lot more peace in my heart. A general, overall, feeling of well being. A feeling that everything is not only going to be all right, but that it already is all right. A new found wisdom in my own heart and soul is what I am referring to. A feeling of forgiveness for myself.

What a FREEING feeling.

To no longer feel condemned by my own self is wonderful. To have a new found compassion for the 17 year old girl who made "mistakes". That seventeen year old was me. Now I clearly see that had I had more information at that time in my life, had I owned the "tools" I know have to operate my life with, I would have made different choices. But I did not have those tools. Just as no one who is 17 has the wisdom that life teaches over time.

So, today I feel okay with things. And I try to see the positive.

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